My Enchanting Moment With You

有些事情开口了就不一样了

Is it because you are a person who doesn’t know how to show your concern or just too self centred?
I know I am strong but many of the times I really hate myself for being strong, I want to break down too, I’m not superwoman.
Since that day I broke down in tears in front of you, I was really disappointed in how you reacted to it.
I’m not an attention seeker of any sort, neither do I see a need to put up such an act to fish for your attention. However, I really needed your concern. You came to meet me but you did not even give me a hug or anything that I could feel your headache to see me in that state. It doesn’t ache you to see me breaking down, crying for help?
Then I had to quarrel with you before coming to a consensus. Why?
After that day, I realised other than morning texts, and text after you knock off I could not recall any text of asking about my condition. Do you care? What if the situation worsen?
I had to admit and accept that we both are engaged at work, but you mean you don’t even have the time to give me a short call to be assured of my situation and emotions?
I’m really very sad about it. So from now on I’m not going to text you neither look or arrange anything with you anymore, I hate to say this but why do I feel history seems to be repeating? Why do I feel so neglected and had to compromise to you so much now, and if I don’t it just means I’ll be excluded from your plans? I’m tired, I give up. Really no more energy to sustain this torment. It can be the sweetest yet the most hearbreaking thing too.

I always remind myself last time if she is bad, don’t follow. If she back stab, let it be. Bcos one day ppl will eventually see it and I should stay strong on my view, one day it’ll eventually pay off.. And indeed my life is at the best of state. I reap what I sow. I always remind myself that always stand on the point which I think is correct even if the whole world is against it bcos at least will never regret.
But ofc that excludes advices on my actions and being stubborn.